| Location | Farnworth, Bolton |
| Age | 17 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 25/03/1986 |
| Date of Death | 07/01/2004 |
| Visitors | 2,823 since 31/01/2008 |
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Julain died in January 2004 at age 17 in Farnworth, Bolton. He may have decided to leave this world but he will never leave the hearts and minds of those who were lucky enough to know him x
He is missed every second of every minute of every hour of every day x
For my baby:
I thought of you today,
But that was nothing new.
I thought of you yesterday,
And the days before that too.
I think of you in silence,
And often speak your name.
All i have of you are memories
And your pictures in a frame.
God has you in his keeping,
I have you in my heart.
In life i loved you dearly,
In death i love you still.
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you didn\'t go alone
For part of me went with you
that day God took you home x
xxxxx
Joolzy B' ..... I'm so shocked and numb :( been looking for u on myspace/facebook and how we first met faceparty! For 10 years and I was directed to here :( can't believe ur gone, the hours we use to spend on the phone and the bills I use to have to pay LOL, it was a privalege to of known u I thought u was so talented amazing (and pretty fit haha) if I was to say I'm not gutted I'd be lying but I know I'll be seeing u one day xxx take it easy up there and stop chasing the other angels xxxxx Lucy (from the place u cud never pronounce - SAW-Bridge-worth hehe xx
Feel my Love - by Adele
When the rain is blowing in your face,
and the whole world is on your case,
I can offer you a warm embrace to make you feel my love
when the evening shadows in the stars appear
and there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
to make to you feel my love
I wish you hadn't made your mind up yet
coz I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met,
no doubt in my mind where you belong
I'd go hungry I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
know there's nothing that I wouldn't do
to make you feel my love
The storm is raging on the road and sea
and on the high way on the bridge
the winds of change are blowing wild and free
you aint seen nothing like me yet
I could make you happy make your dreams come true
nothing that i wouldn't do
go to the ends of the earth for you
to make you feel my love
to make you feel my love
I miss you son x
X Watching Over X
Where are you
Where can you be?
Now you have gone
It feels like you have left me!
Dont be silly
That could never happen!
For You are watching over
From sky's Up Above
Sending down all your love
In everything that makes me laugh
In every gentle wind that smooths my face
Yes you watch over Angel
Until we meet again
x In our own happy embrace x
precious memories
Julian, I wish you were here. I miss you more each second I breathe. I know you are now resting in peace, and I accept you are now ‘free’ and ‘released’ from all life’s concerns.
Yet I still yearn to hear your voice one more time, to hear your laughter would fill me with sunshine for that ‘moment’.
Jan 7th 2004 the gates of heaven opened up for you, yet I dream I could go back to the day you were born, when the angels gave me love, and experience ALL the special moments you allowed me to share with you just one more time…………..but now I cling to the memory’s and would like to Thank You for:
• The experience of my pregnancy, and the love it gave me for life
• The overwhelming feeling of love and devotion when you were born
• Being the sleepiest baby at night and the happiest in the morning
• For your first everything – tear, smile, word, step, hug, kiss and laugh
• For the memories of our holidays and many days out where I could hear the sound of your laughter
• For your first day at school
• For all the practical jokes and wind up’s you so frequently played on myself and others
• Your school reports – the highs…………and the lows, as we learned together
• The spice girls routine, and the video I will cherish
• The ‘plays’ you and Anthony directed and starred in, whilst playing your bedroom at Grandma’s
• The cuddles
• Your dancing
• ALL your many questions about life as you grew into a man
• Your willingness to be open and share your personal life experiences with me
• By always standing by your word and allowing me to trust your judgement
• For all the fancy dress outfits we made together
• For 17 birthdays
• All your presents you picked out for me, you put a lot of thought into them
• For allowing me to kiss you good night……..most nights
• For all the pictures you have drawn and allowed me to display
• For the characateurs you made of our family, and the one you allowed to be done of us.
• For your kind words
• Our last Christmas, which you made very special
• For the hours it took to plait your hair every month
• The cuppas when I was ill
• For posing for the hundreds and hundreds of photos I constantly took of every stage of your precious life
• For the CD’s of music you made for me, even though you didn’t like the style
• For your ability to produce profound music which I finally got to hear and adore
• For your smiles, rare as they became…………yet more precious they seemed because of it.
• For being tall, handsome, polite, kind and generous
But most of all……..Thank you for being in my life and allowing me to share 17 years, 9 months and 13 days with the most amazing son anyone could wish for. You are still my heart and my strength and you will be for ever more x
my heart goes out to you, my son Ian Foster too took his own life, lvoe sheila
Reflection
Another day for you to wonder, another day for you to mourn
It wasn't my intention to go before the coming dawn
My pain was deep within my heart and troubled head
It wasn't my intention to go without words said.
My frame of mind seemed normal, or so I heard them say
It wasn't my intention not to see another day
I did not mean to make you suffer or cause you so much pain
It wasn't my intention to never see you again.
Despair and confusion left my aching mind unsure
It wasn't my intention to suddenly close life's door
If only I could give you reasons and brush the tears away
It wasn't my intention to leave you and not stay.
I did not mean for you to grieve, now left alone to cry
It wasn't my intention to leave you, forever asking why
As the burdens of life's worries slowly ebb from my heart
it wasn't my intention to tear your soul apart
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Sup BOo</3
Yu iite? Aiint SpoOke To Cah iin A whiile GoOta Admiit loOl.
Even tho the pass rollin nearly 5 years iim stiil wakiin up l8 at niite cryiin tears..ii thiink bout the tiime we used tOo talk bout liickle daff tiings but lukiin at em now ii realiise they was GOod MemoOriiez
i found a penny today
laying on the ground
but its not just a penny
this little coin i found
pennies come from heaven
that's what my dad told me
he said angels toss them down
oh, how i loved this story
he said when an Angel misses you
They toss a penny down
sometimes just to cheer you up
To make a smile out of a frown
So, don't pass by that penny
When you're feeling blue
It may be a penny from Heaven
That Julian tossed to you
love and thought to you always
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx x
My Child
They say memories are golden,
well maybe this is true
but i never asked for memories
i only wanted you
a thousand times i've needed you
and a thousand times i've cried
if love could of saved you, you never would of died
if love could build a stairway and heartache build a lane
i'd walk that path to heaven and bring you back again
our family chain is broken and things will never be the same
but,
as god calls us one by one, the chain will link again x
There is a place in every heart,
They call it Memory Lane,
Where thoughts of loved ones lost
Forever will remain.
God made this special place
When He first created man,
For He knew it would be needed,
As part of our life's plan.
He knew when loved ones left us,
We'd need some time to heal,
To come to terms with sorrow
And the loneliness we'd feel.
So when you lose a loved one
And your life is filled with pain,
The comfort of their presence
Will be found in Memory Lane.
THANKING YOU FOR ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT
WHICH YOU GIVE TO MYSELF AND DEBBIE
YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY THOUGHTS
LOVE YVONNE
XXXXXXXXXX
How we go on................
A DAY, A WEEK, A LIFETIME
When I wake up in the morning
I ask myself
How will I get through this day
Without You
As I dress and prepare to start my day
I wonder
How will I go on
Without You
As the day slowly slips away
I remember how you made me laugh
And I smile
Without You
At the end of the day
As I prepare to close my eyes
I know in my HEART
I couldn't have gotten through the day
WITHOUT YOU
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